Lately I begin to realise that the decisions I have for the couple of months are parts of a bigger picture. I distanced myself from my ‘old’ life. I’m not coming back. I don’t want to be the same person. Everyone moved on but me. I need to start the construction again. Constructing the identity. i feel it. This time it is going to be just perfect. I desperately need it to be perfect.
The two processes of coming-to-be
Insanlara kiziyorum. Bazilari uzuyorlar beni, yok hepsi uzuyorlar. Peki hepsini hayatimdan atmali miyim? Bir denge oturturamadim bu konuda. Gercekten ne yapmam gerekiyor? Bu isin olcusu ne? Hani seni cok uzerse mi ondan kurtulman lazim? Affetmek nereye kadar? Kafamda cok soru var. Kimse de bana yardimci olamiyor. Herkesin formulu farkli. Hicbiri bana uymuyor.
Kisacasi soru su: En eski arkadasimi, kendime en yakin buldugum insani kaybetmeli miyim? Bilerek.
Erlend Oye - A Sudden Rush
So I opted to travel back to my high school years for this week’s pick. I don’t remember the first time I heard this album but it was definitely at a friend’s birthday party. For some reason, it reminds me of eating chicken curry and being on a roof…but that just might be my brain putting together separate memories… Needless to say, this album reminds me of some fun times.
While I could’ve picked the first song of the album (Ghost Trains) I picked this one instead because it has such good forward motion to it. I feel like I could be driving around some massive metropolitan city in the middle of the night to this song and it would be extremely appropriate. It’s electronic music but not the type that you’d normally find at some obnoxious dance club.
Erlend Oye is a Norwegian musician from Bergen and Unrest was released in 2003. I was itching for more music from him because I like this album so much, but unfortunately, I couldn’t find any. I did however, learn that he was part of a Norwegian folk duo called Kings of Convenience (which has the same kind of sound as this album…sans synthesizer).
I hope you all enjoy this as much as I did. Have a great Saturday!